This Past Year Lyrics

I think about it when I�m lying awake; I analyze every single mistake
Is it over, have I peaked cause I miss what I won�t see
I thought about it this past year I was kicking back without one single fear
The truth is this is not L.A. and I can�t give up that easily

I was only 16 and lost in the scene
Caught up in drama is how we got started and now
Years later there�s a whole in my heart
And there�s no one to blame but me
Why do I still believe?

Stop right there it�s the end of the road for you but for me
I�m still kicking back with this new kid next to me
I lost faith, I lost respect; I think I need to get this off of my chest
I�ve said it before, I�ll say it again; we�ve gotta work this out

17 and living the dream
Not a care in the world is how I got lost but now
Years later there�s a whole in my heart
And there�s no one to blame but me
Why do I still believe?

Yeah I told myself a million times before I wouldn�t hold my breath
But I can muster up the strength to say goodbye
No not this time

And now I�m back on my feet and I�m feeling the heat
Of the Cali sky, makes me feel alive